As you know from Wednesday's blog, I hurt my back at work. It worries me to have back pain. I simply do not have time for back pain. And, having an injured back makes it tough to do my job. I don't want to get into all of the worries that are floating in the not so back of my consciousness. It makes my back hurt worse!
I was given Friday off by my supervisor. We had a light day scheduled, and she asked if I'd like to take the day to try and rest/heal my back.
I'm TERRIBLE at resting. When I have mountains of things to do, and little time to do it, I am GREAT at resting. In nursing school I realized that I have two reactions to stress. One reaction is to organize every detail of my life that I can even remotely control. The other is sleep. It is a sleep that can not be avoided. As in, I would be sitting in a chair trying to desperately understand the renal system, and the next thing I'd know, it would be two hours later and drool would be running down my face.
Thursday I rested. I attempted to some light housework, but my back spasmed every time I tried to move something, or reached in a certain way. I ended up finishing a free Nook book that I didn't particularly enjoy, but determined to finish it. I clipped three weeks worth of coupons, and cleaned out about half the expired ones.
I swear by 7pm I thought the day was never going to end.
So, Friday I sat on my couch and slowly sipped my coffee, and looked out the window at the brilliant sunshine, and decided there was nothing for it. I simply had to wash my light fixtures and windows.
Because, clearly that is just the remedy for back pain.
Why is this post called "Feeling Sentimental?" Patience, Dear Reader. I'm getting there in my rambling too drawn out fashion.
I washed windows. And I thought of my Grandma Irene. I could picture her, with her cream colored wash pan and white tea towels helping me scrub the fly specks off of her kitchen window and storm doors. Grandma Irene has never allowed a speck of dust to make itself at home in her house. She was and still is a hard worker.
She is also very no nonsense. She will say the most outrageous things. And they will be true. But somehow, you can't help but laugh at the crazy thing she just said. I think I'm a little like her in that way. I have a terrible tendency to say what I think, then think twice about what already popped out of my mouth.
As I sat at my dining room table, eating a bowl of leftover chili, my gaze wandered to my new chairs. It set my mind to remembering Grandmama Dolly. I really don't think I am much like her at all. Perhaps we have some similar physical attributes. She was always tall and thin with long thin fingers and small wrists. I have never been as thin as her, and never will be, but I have really long arms and legs, and my fingers are long and thin like hers. Oh, and we both love a cute pair of heels, and I remember her saying that skirts should hit just above or just below the knee to be the most flattering. I have no idea why she told me that, or why I remember it, but I find it to be true!
While I was thinking of her and missing her, I decided to treat myself to a cup of coffee. Feeling indulgent, I added some hazelnut creamer to the cup. Since Grandmama was fresh in my mind, I felt a pang of guilt over the unnecessary calories and fat from that creamer. I don't know of very many grandmas who tell their grandchildren, "Don't drink so much milk, it will make you fat." Or, better yet, "Don't eat so much bread, you don't want to get fat." I was always horrified when she would say such things to me, but now I see how right she was. Granted, I still drink a giant glass of milk every single morning, but you can bet Grandmama Dolly's bright red Roper boots that it is skim!
As I looked at the not so practical chair in my living room, I realized I may be more like her than I realized. My mom has told me they never had matching furniture growing up. Well, considering my house is decorated with odds and ends that I have accumulated and kept for various sentimental reasons, perhaps I take after her more than I think!
Grandma Irene has a very few nick knacks scattered through her house. They are the same ones I always remember, with the exception of a few things she's received as a gift in the last few years. Her house is always spotless, and every flower arrangement and little figurine is exactly as it should be, and no dust dare live near it.
Grandmama Dolly had more nick knacks and whatnots than the eye could discover on a distracted scan of the room. She had 5 kids, 16 grandkids, and I won't even attempt counting greats and great greats. She had lots of framed photos that we all gave her of our families. She could always name everyone's birthday. That always amazed me. I can barely remember my siblings birthdays!
I bemoan the things I have scattered throughout my house. I swear, at times I let it get so bad, that one could pretend they were walking through a junk shop as they wander my house! But so many of them have sentimental value, or they just make me think of my grandparents, so I simply must put them out!
I'm contemplating asking my husband to drag my box of fall decorations down, but that would mean eliminating some of the "things" that make me smile to look at! However, if I don't put something up, you won't even be able to see the different decorations!
Oh, well, this point is not well thought out, and flows terribly. I guess I will just show you some random photos of a few trinkets I've laid about. Apparently so I can have something to dust around.
Wait! What am I saying? I don't dust as a general rule. I do not dust, empty the dishwasher or scoop dog poop. I have children for those tasks. Even if they don't dust as well as I'd like. At least I'm not doing it.
|This porcelain doll is the only wrapped Christmas gift I ever remember getting from Grandmama. One of my girls posed her behind this frame with an old doll dresser and the old red truck. Affection for old junk seems to keep trickling down the line.|
By the way, Grandmama was a country music fanatic. She would have loved that song.